HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :)

CLICK THE LYRICS:

Though I've tried before to tell him

Of the feelings I have for him in my heart
Every time that I come near him
I just lose my nerve
As I've done from the start


Every little thing he does is magic
Everything he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days
Since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing he does is magic
Everything he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

I resolve to call him up a thousand times a day
And ask him if he'll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?

Every little thing he does is magic
Everything he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

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Thought 5: Life Lessons (Oct.)

DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Come out to play, greet the brand new daaaaay =]

Open up your eyes, see the sunny skiiiieeeessss!!!!

LOOK AROUND.

When you need help promote your boobs, or bring a friend who will (hehee)

Don't speak to loudly, people are listening.....

There are some friends who you really enjoy and can't live without, then there are some who are just friends with you and thats all.

Guilt is an evil muthaaaaa.

SHIT IS FUCKED UPPPPPP!

I LOVE. ;)

Sometimes a DOUCHE is a douche but there is the rare case of a cool douche.

some guys are just as confused as we are :)))))

karma. a best friend one minute, a fucking ax wound the next.

Always curse uncontrollably while playing UNO. (trust me it works)

Sometimes its good not to be subtle.

Whoever romanticized love is a sick, demented, and sadistic fuck..... but gahhhh :)

a whole bunch of little l's looks like a bar code. llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

With the right determination, a king size mattress can fit into a dorm.

Some people just like to hear themselves.

Canadian tacooooooo. same old thing.

Girls are fucking psychotic. :) but it works for us.

"OBAMA SEES THE FUTURE" ahaaaaaaaaaa.

"The Chinese people really like the 6 and the 9"

Thought 4: Life Lessons (sept)

Life Lessons....

"Those you've known and lost still walk behind you."

Everywhere you go there will be a fan of Spring Awakening.

The best friendships form because of musical theatre.

Choking is always hysterical unless its happening to you...sad but true.

Deja Vu is a sign telling you to listen.

Ive got chills theyre multiplyin' .... and thats because my grave is next to jim morrison

An itchy nose could mean someone is thinking about you or that your mouth is in danger("so dont put anything in your mouth today")

Itch is a verb in my vernacular...and someday the whole world will agree

No matter what language there will always be a letter you can not pronounce.

Controversial people can not spell.

Dont eat the snozzberries!

Bed Bath and Beyond is a haven to be treasured for all women

A hot gay guy with an voice that makes you melt is the most evil thing in the world and my goddd the besttttttttt

A girl can never take to many pictures of herself.

If at your dorm and expecting Tito... it will rain.

Dont be a tram dud.

Smilingggggggggggggg does make you happier.

Mind over matter babyyyyyyyy

YOU SHOULD NEVER REFRAIN FROM A MUSICAL REFERENCE!

"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you find you get what you need"

:)

Thought 3: Los secretos.....

1. I love playing with my hair.

2. I'll cover you.

3. You mean more to me then you will ever know. =]

4. Singing completes me.

5. My eyes are open.

6. I wanna be bad.

7. I'm not good enough.

8. I'm too good for that.

9. I need nothing more than what i have :) (bare necessities)

10. I feel insufficient.

11. I'm a bitch.

12. I want to know what you think.

13. I don't really care what you think.

14. I really do know what i want to do with my life.

15. I'm not going to try to do that.

16. I lack conviction.

17. I dont care.

18. I care more than is imaginable.

19. I'm a walking contradiction.

20. I'm walking on sunshine.

I keep my secrets hidden from the world including me.

Thought 2

I want to find that person that completes my song. That person whose harmony fills me to the brim with ecstasy.

Time Capsule.

OCT 22ND 2009

This is day number 6,868 for people born on January 3, 1991

Dear 28 year old self,

On this day I have written a letter to my future self. Some stuff will be rather unimportant by the time i reach that age and some might be the most important thing you will ever hear(most likely the unimportant frivolous one though), but either way, I think it important to preserve myself at this age. My mannerisms, My thoughts, My junk(hopefully you will still get this reference by that age!) at this age are all things which helped you become who you are today.

First of all I am going to document exactly what I thought about myself at this time (just in case facebook is no longer running and i cant read my about me lol)

My name is ashley! To know me is to be utterly confused. But a little confusion is a good thing in life in my opinion =]

Now if you are ever lucky enough to truly get to know me you will get passed that initial confusion but only slightly, I’m afraid.

I'm a rather odd person but I'm ok with that.

I'm the type of girl who will make fun of you worse than any other person but will tell you how great you absolutely are 3 seconds later!

I'm the type of girl who will sing Broadway show tunes non-stop just because...

I'm the type of girl who will skip a math lecture to watch an episode of old school SpongeBob

I'm the type of girl who really doesn't care if you find my happiness obnoxious

I'm the type of girl who will fall for any guy that sings

I'm the type of girl who never knows how far is too far, and I couldn't be happier!

I'm the type of girl who will correct her own spelling but never someone else's

I'm the type of girl who will tell you you're beautiful inside and out because you are

I'm the type of girl who will rehearse a conversation just because it makes my life more theatrical

And I'm the type of girl who, although concerned somewhat about the future, will forever live in the present because who really knows when this wonderful journey we call life will come to an end?

As long as I feel I left the world better then I found it...

... I couldn't be more ecstatic.

And there you go... my description of myself on the precise day of writing this note. of course i probably edited it the next day knowing me.

wow it is so odd talking about the future in the past!!!! lol

Now on to the more trivial nonsense:

This is what i want future ashley to remember.

SpongeBob really does make things better. He may be square but take some advice from this yellow invertebrate. he is happy!

Don't forget how much you love to sing. A great harmony can be better than sex and if singing a song you love, all problems can disappear.

Your celebrity crushes at the time were:

Johnny Depp (bet he still damn sexy)

Christian Bale

and Matt Doyle (such a shame he is gay :[ )

Your Best friends were:

Kyle M., Kim H., Krista P., Tyler C., Gaby H., Denise K., Maureen M., Taylor D., Tyler W., Stes D., Rachael P., Lorena V., Kaitlin S., Sarah R., Bonnie B., LeAnn M.

hopefully you remained friends with most of this people :)

At the time of writing this you totally had a thing for the guy in your chinese class hahaaaa.

and if wenerchild were older omgggg you would totally have loved himmmmm lol.

At the moment you have still vowed to never date, marry, ect a J (but were still secretly attracted to them) OMG if you by any chance are married to one now know that past you is soooo laughing at you!!!! hard!!!!!!

what was your bath and body works scent you ask? Midnight Pomegranate. yeahhh

I hate my feet.

hmmm i really wonder what my hair looks like now...probably the same hahaha i dislike change.

MLIA and texts from last night rule your world (i bet you dont even remember what mlia stands for. well ya know what im not gonna tell you im gonna make you think!)

At the time Johnny depp had a bacon number of 2

Johnny Depp was in Public Enemies with Lili Taylor who was in She's having a baby with Kevin Bacon

You could tell the difference between different colored mm's hopefully you still have this skill :)

SPRING AWAKENING!!!!! (enough said.)

I love lifeeeeeeee! no day but todayyyy!

I feel like i have so much to say to you!!!!!! but its late and i have class at 11 tomorrow!!!! I will most likely continue this!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love always,

me

Thought 1

11:39 pm, OCT 22nd, 2009

Find who you are and don't let go. The only way to make it through life is to be sure of yourself. It is when we have doubts that we fail. Embrace that beauty that is you and recognize that you are here for a reason :)

And when you find those people who love you for you don't ever let them go.